I'm falling. And I have several times.

I am going to delve into a scripture on pride. Lately, I think pride has definitely become an issue in my life. I find myself belittling others when I really haven't a good reason to do so. It's only on preconceived ideas of judgments or stereotypes I've made.

I want to look at 1 John 2:15-29.

It speaks of not loving the world and the things in it, but I'm going to focus on the pride of life.

I think I have definitely followed into this pit. I think I have definitely been focusing a lot on the pride of life-thinking a lot of how I am perceived by others. But in this, I also prejudge a lot of people who I think are just trying to get attention.

I've tried to personally work on this, because honestly I hate it when people ploy for sorrow or for attention.

But I think that I have begun to, in a way, ploy for attention and ploy for approval. I don't think I necessarily do it with words more often than I do with my actions. I am a goofy guy, but a lot of times I do things just to be goofy so that people will say "wow he's goofy".

Then I turn and judge others for essentially doing the same thing that I do, but in a different fashion. I condemn one action because I perceive it as wrong, but then I do something that is in its essence the same.

This is hypocritical. This is pride. This is my downfall.

Pride comes before the fall, and I think I have definitely fallen a lot, especially this semester.

I feel like this has been a weakness of mine for a while, but is just now becoming a realization. I've always hated it when people live with an aura of pride about them, but I definitely find myself thinking highly of myself in various aspects. But what am I worthy of? What have I done that has made a difference in the eternal realm? I am not worthy of anything. Nothing I have done, am doing, or will do will have any credibility unless it is done for the glory of God, and I really don't think that has been my motivation for many things, even things that I claim have been.

I think pride is something that is innate in everyone. I think that it is something that forces us to realize our futility without God. I can never get rid of my prideful thinking without God's help, and without His help, my pride just pushes me further and further away from God.

I don't think the fact that the pride of life is one of the main downfalls of man is surprising, it certainly makes sense to me. It has been a constant struggle in my life, but I never really acknowledged it or confronted it.

I pray that with God's help I will be able to let go of my pride and be a truly humble person that can edify others. I need to realize that I have absolutely no reason for me to be prideful, that nothing I do has any substance unless the Lord is saturated in it, and that therefore, I cannot personally change the fact that He loves me by working in and through things I do.

I'm excited. I'm excited to be active in being a humble person that edifies others. I'm really going to work on it, and, with (and only with) the Lord's help, may my pride dump out and His unconditional love pour in.

Praise the Lord!

Lee