Taste and See that the Lord is good, even when my attitude is not.

Today, today.

Today was a rollercoaster ride. I don't like rollercoasters very much. I like some of them but ones with humongous drops are scary. All that to say, today was very up and down.

I woke up late because I was out pretty late, and I really wasn't feeling up for swim today. I felt a lot better once I woke up, but I slept through half of my only class, so I didn't go to that one either. oops.

I ate lunch with Caitlyn today, and I enjoyed our time and conversation, I usually do. One of the few ups of the day.

Upon returning to my room, I tackled some Wii Sports with David. We owned.

I then had to get to the show spot to check in...3 hours before the show. The coaster was beginning to peak over the edge of the hill, the huge fall very eminent.

I got there, and wasn't very happy, because there was literally no point in us being there save to unload equipment. But we could have done that an hour before the show, not 3 hours.

Then the sound guy, who is a cool guy and was a neighbor last year, wanted to use only one drum set. The coaster definitely just got released into its plummet.

I hit my kit hard. Really hard. Other drummers may not like this very much. I also like my kit and set it up a very specific way, and a set is very personal to a drummer. Honestly, if the other guys wanted to use my kit, I'd be totally down, but they seemed to be of higher profile than us, so I figured they would want to play their own. When I said that I'd rather just play mine, he didn't really seem okay with it, as he thought it would slow the show down. Usually the sound guy does things to edify the band. Plus, it's a three hour show with only 3 bands playing. There are a lot more reasons, but I think I'll stop at those.

Needless to say, I was really frustrated. I told him that that was dumb and was basically a really rude jerk to him. I apologized later, but I still feel bad.

I eventually said that whatever he wanted to do was fine.

Then, when the other higher profile bands said that they should just use their own kits, he quickly succumbed. Seeing my opinion's worth, I became more frustrated.

I suddenly became very negative and unhappy. I went off by myself for a little while and tried to pray and calm down.

I then set up my kit. I took my time and just paid close attention to detail as I figured this would take my mind off of things. But I was soon rushed again as we needed to sound check. My snare was sounding goofy, so I tuned it up. It took a long, frustrating time.

Finally, we sound checked. I couldn't hear a thing except for the sound that was bouncing off of Horton, which made me feel as though I was a little bit off the whole time. I was so frustrated because the sound gentleman said that he couldn't raise the volume anymore, and I felt so off. This is a terrible feeling.

After we sound checked, we had a little pizza and breadsticks. I went and got my sweatshirt, trying to be optimistic about how the show would be great and run a lot smoother.

Boy was I wrong. After waiting for about 25 minutes because of a blown fuse, we finally got to play. I couldn't hear a thing. I felt so uncomfortable. It made it not fun. And, because of the blown fuse, we got cut short. We hardly got any extra time to begin with. It was disappointing.

But it was also very humbling. I certainly realized that I need to not worry about shows and such and just go into them with a good attitude and without high expectations, only expectations to glorify the Lord.

Some people we talked to afterwards complimented us and said that they didn't notice anything off or weird, so that was a little comforting. Still though, I didn't enjoy myself.

After we finished, I had to escape again. I prayed and sat in silence. It was over. I asked God to simply let me forget about it, to take away my bad and negative attitude then and in any situations like that because I can't glorify Him in it, and that I could have a good rest of the night.

Well, the rest of the night was certainly a lot better, the coaster started to incline. I put my set away and came back to the dorm. I got to vent a little with Caitlyn and then with Clay and David, that certainly helped. I felt like a big winer. I basically was one.

So I came back and laid down for a little while.

Then, it was volleyball. I had a great time. We lost, but it didn't matter because we had a lot of fun. It's going to be fun playing with everyone. I lost my voice because I was yelling a lot, all in jest and good fun though. I hope they all realized that I was just having some fun with it. I'll confirm at my next practice.

But yeah, I had a good time with it.

That was basically the end of the night, I got and apple/watermelon Italian soda from Commons, but other than that, I have just been hanging out.

I hope that I can learn from today and realize that I need to work on my attitude in certain situations. There is no point in having a bad attitude, for it only makes me unhappy and others around unhappy. And I don't want to do that, I want to make people happy. I'm going to work on having a good attitude, no matter what the situation, to handle it with joy. That way, I will be better equipped to glorify God, for others respond better to a smile than to a frown.

Ahh, Psalms are so beautiful, so I am going to post another one. This is Psalms 34, I want to strive for this, especially for His praise to continually be in my mouth.

34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times;
his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul makes its boast in the Lord;
let the humble hear and be glad.
3 Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
and let us exalt his name together!

4 I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant,
and their faces shall never be ashamed.
6 This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him
and saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The angel of the Lord encamps
around those who fear him, and delivers them.

8 Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!
9 Oh, fear the Lord, you his saints,
for those who fear him have no lack!
10 The young lions suffer want and hunger;
but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.

11 Come, O children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
12 What man is there who desires life
and loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Turn away from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous
and his ears toward their cry.
16 The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
17 When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
20 He keeps all his bones;
not one of them is broken.
21 Affliction will slay the wicked,
and those who hate the righteous will be condemned.
22 The Lord redeems the life of his servants;
none of those who take refuge in him will be condemned.

Praise the Lord.

May the morrow bring its promise of much rain.

I'm excited for a new day, a day where I get to start over and have a good attitude.
I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Lee