Glorifying Aurally?

I'm not sure where the Lord is taking me, but I'm doing my very best to stay attuned to his will and maintain a course on the path that he has for me.

What is that path?

As I said, I don't know the destination, but I feel my heart changing.

I've always had a passion for music, but for some reason, this passion is being intensified in my soul, and I feel as if my future is changing. Or at least the vision that I once had for my future is being changed.

Coming to college, I was so certain that I wanted to be a film director.
My life was planned out: I would break into Hollywood easily, make truth-saturated films that would rock peoples' core beliefs, and win people for Jesus. If fame would come along, then I would be a light in the magnifying glass that comes with being in the film business.

Amidst this, however, God really had no say. Through various circumstances, I felt that God had sparked the fire of film in me, and therefore any work I put towards it was a good thing, but I left him out of all the decisions.

Idiot.

Only very recently have I let God have a say in my life, and since then, I feel like He has been opening several music opportunities (through bands, friends, and a sudden passion for engineering) and closing several film ones. It was weird, but I suddenly felt my sights fixing somewhere other than film.

I have also been realizing as of late, that my main focus should be people, because nothing else on this earth will last forever. It's all about reaching souls. EVERYTHING is about reaching souls for Jesus Christ to expand His current kingdom on earth, therefore furthering His kingdom in heaven. Live for things eternal. Live for hearts, for souls, for Jesus. Don't store treasures up on earth where moth and rust destroy and thieves steal. Store treasures in a place that no one can steal from.

This notion seems so obvious in Christian faith, but it's just now hit me. Last week, it seemed like everything that I was learning was talking about this idea. It's such a simple, yet difficult way to live, but I'm doing my very best to live by it.

Therefore, with this in mind, I'm trying to attune myself to what God has for me. I don't want to jump in to anything that He doesn't have for me, which is really difficult if it's something that I really want. I'm trying to give it all to Him, my entire life, my entire thought-process, my entire emotional palette, His.

It's a hard thing to consciously think about all the time, and thus I am constantly failing, but if I truly want to glorify Him in everything that I do, I need to let Him take control of my everything.

Is music my future?

That would be awesome, but if it's not what God has, then I don't want that to be what my heart desires. At the moment, it seems to be the direction God is leading me, but at the moment, I am simply trying to align myself with His will, for if I desire God's will, my future will be made clear.

Lord, I give you my future, the thing I've always tried to control. Please take it, please guide me.

Amen.